Changes is something that doesn't click well with me. It used to be so physically and emotionally difficult for me to adapt to it... it probably still is. People always say that changes is a vital part and parcel of life... that one should develop with the changes around in order to succeed. Okay... reasonable... when you put that into the equation of strategies of business or improving turnovers and stuff it's fine. Move along with the technology and the millenium era crap. Fine. But personally, it's rather stressful. What's wrong with staying the way I perfectly am?
I love going to help out at the office. Initially i was given work that i have never imagined me doing before, then i learnt to ace it whether i like it or not. I used to dislike going to work but then i got over that too. Office boy's job one day, writing job another day, and bOOM! I'm in Brunei. People i met at work, people that come and go, and people that came to give mandarin oranges. Not even past 6 months, my mentor left. Considering that i spent 4 days and 3 nights with her and her alone in another country, i was devastated. But what can i do right? Just like a mini-war going on, 1 by 1 the "soldiers" left.. or rather down. I used to think that we were fighting a battle but we only want to defend ourselves from the evils of the "world". I may not be an official part of the department but hey, i was there since the day the place was started. Now it's past 10 months and....We've lost. Firuz, Ashie, SanSan, Mich, Mam, Ju and perhaps Smelly. That leaves me.... nowhere precisely. I always thought that i'd be there till i leave them for Murdoch. Now it's the other way round and i'm back to.... computer lab. Gosh what an alternative.
On the other hand, it really just isn't about me ain't it? I can't tell people what to do and what not to do. And i can only change things that i can control. Of course given the chance i don't want things to change. But then again, it's all in the perspective. The cycle effect of life. Karma. One thing leads to the other. When there's happiness there's sadness, when there's life there's death, you don't know fear if you've never been afraid, i eat therefore i shit. Just as if i stay in high school and not change anything, i won't know the fun i've had in the past year and met the people whom i want to stay the same with now... not wanting any changes. The list goes on and on. Time to MOVE ON babE!!
